This is the question that I would ask myself time and time again: "Why the @*#! do I keep doing this." Which really meant: "Every time I use porn, I feel like a loser, but I can't stop doing it, I'm such a FAILURE!" These thoughts led me to a familiar "pity" party - and guess who was the DJ...DJ sex alot!

Porn has been called the "crack-cocaine of the Internet". To me it was like Godiva chocolate to a sweet tooth, or bread to an Italian. At times Porn looked so dirty to me...but at times porn looked like a white Porsche 911 Slant Nose Turbo - yeah...I grew up obsessing over this sports car and no I don't own one..yet :)

The truth is I was hopeless against the allure of Porn for many years of my life...even when I was dating awesome girls -who you'd think would be more than enough; I still let Porn, especially internet porn, seduce me time after time.

Fortunately, that part of my life was the first chapter of the novel. The author of this book knew exactly what he was doing; He was leading "me" to a conversion from an entitlement mentality (I can do whatever I want and that is Freedom", to a God-centered mentality (I can only be truly free if I do what God wants).

Once I began living with the motivation to please Him, Porn became an after thought...and eventually something I grew to despise...so we broke up.

I felt sad at first, it was like breaking-up with an old girlfriend - these things were such a part of my life, I thought, "How can I live without porn?" But I can see now why God wanted me to eliminate all those porn magazines, my computer, and bar hopping.

As temptations to Lust slowly disappeared around me; the presence of the Holy Spirit began showing up every where! I began hearing the voice of God more clearly in prayer, and the bible came to life! Smiles came much easier and I stopped drinking and using drugs...and best of all - a huge weight of shame was lifting off my shoulders!

 Here is the secret, I chose to follow God completely and make Him the the central part of my life...I'm talking about Central now! Nothing can be more important, which means some things you hold dear - "Idols" in other words - have to be totally eliminated.  

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I look forward to your comments.

Q1: How bad do you want to stop falling for Lusts (Scale 1-10)?

Q2: What improvements (peace, confidence,better prayer life) will come once you eliminate sexual sin?

Q3: What needs to be totally eliminated from your life?